I am a middle school teacher and Spring Break started Friday at 3:01 PM. I have immersed myself in time with family, household chores too long neglected, some cooking and extra snuggles with my dachshund. And tomorrow I will enjoy coffee with a friend. I will be enjoying travel and leisure time. However, I need to conduct an important piece of business during Spring Break. I have been stressing all day about tomorrow. In the morning I have a routine examination at my doctor's, the kind of exam to which no woman looks forward.
I'm going to go through with it, and know no one will care for my body like I will. When I was in my 20's and 30's I could play fast and loose with my nutritional and exercise choices. I neglected my self, took my health for granted, and failed to establish healthy habits. I saw many of my friends establish these habits. I have no excuse.
But I wish I had the freedom from inhibitions I had as a kid. I wish I didn't cycle through humiliation, concern, curiosity ("Am I normal down there?"), and self-loathing. It only ends to begin again.